Posted by Hadena James on February 15, 2017
I’m going to have to throw in the towel and admit some defeat. As much as I want to release Innocent Dreams on Halloween, there’s just no way I’m going to get it done in time at this point. So, look for a November release.
The good news is that I am track to release the first in the companion part of the Dreams & Reality series: Triggered Reality. Expect a December release for it (unless something miraculous happens).
This comes because I got good news and bad news. The good news is my computer will be here today. The bad news is it is going to take me several days to get it set up. It is going to need programs installed, files transferred onto it, and it always takes me a few days to adjust to working on a different computer… Plus the health news below is going to slow down some of the set up.
We figured out the source of my back pain: degenerative disk disease. It’s pretty much exactly what it sounds like; the disks in my spine are starting to deteriorate. In my case, it’s hereditary and while most things seem to come from my father’s side of the family, this one may have come from my mother’s (I learned yesterday that she is the only sibling that hasn’t had back surgery or treatments for different reasons). I can’t stop it. I can’t fix it. I can only slow it down and when the disks start to disappear completely, I will have to have them replaced.
At the moment, I have only one deteriorating disk. It has gotten bad enough that it needs help. Thankfully, we aren’t to the needing surgery point yet, but that day will probably come. This afternoon, I start cortisone shots. It’s two injections, directly into the disk, using a sonogram machine and a huge needle. I’ve been told it hurts. I’ve also been told there is a slight risk of spinal infection and leaking of spinal fluid, both of which can be a serious complication. After the injection tomorrow, I’m not supposed to do much for 24 hours. I have a pretty high pain tolerance, which is good, but I also know it causes me to push myself past the limits at times. Instead of risking screwing up my first treatment, I will be following doctor’s orders.
The stress on the surrounding nerves of this deteriorating disk is what is causing my lower leg pain. It may or may not be permanent. We will have to wait and see how the injections and therapy goes. If it is, we have already begun discussing pain management options. When I was sent to see this doctor, I was told he was the best in Missouri. After talking with him today, I can see why people think so highly of him. He spent nearly an hour in a room with me, discussing everything from what I can expect tomorrow during the injections to what I can expect twenty years from now. We discussed treatments options for scenarios we aren’t even dealing with yet. I found out later that he has done several back surgeries for people I know and all raved about him. So, I feel very confident with his diagnosis and treatment plans. Now, it’s just a matter of time.
Which brings me to part two of the current treatment plan: I have to retrain my back. Monday, I contact a physical therapist in town that deals with disk deterioration and we began working on retraining my back as well as the way I move, in general. There are certain things I am going to have to be careful about doing, regardless of whether the shots help or not. One of them is lifting. One of them is twisting. And the big one for me, stooping. I will also have to adapt to a new routine for typing, especially since I do so much of it. Having a new computer will not help, but I will get used to both at the same time and that might actually be a good thing. My posture isn’t terrible right now, but it isn’t great either. However, the retraining is to keep me from hurting it as often as I did this year – all a symptom of the deteriorating disk that was chalked up to pulled muscles over and over again.
For the most part, I’m still processing the fact that the disks in my spine are going to fall apart and there is nothing I can do to stop it. I can only slow it down. Since, I have the hereditary version, the doctor said I would probably require at least one surgery on my spine before I am 55. Strangely, 19 years doesn’t seem so far away when you are staring down that barrel. If the injections don’t work, it will be much sooner, which doesn’t fill me with joy. However, it’s not next week and that does make me happy. Also, it could be worse, I know a couple of people who have degenerative spine disease, where they are actually losing the bone from their spines, and that is awful.
In Mid-September I will have a progress update on it, upcoming books, how I plan to handle next year (some of that may have to change), and maybe some more good news.
Posted by Hadena James on August 25, 2016
Today is Botox day (round 2). I thought about doing an important blog post, but I haven’t felt like doing much important stuff lately. So, I’m showing off the full covers Covered Creatively has done for me! PS: There will be a new Tortured Dreams cover coming soon. Also, all the D&R and Strachan covers will be full wraps by the end of the year. I’m so excited to get them done. (Tortured Dreams and Innocent Dreams will be the next two to be created and showcased)
Posted by Hadena James on June 20, 2016
We’re taking a break today from the killers. I’m going to do something I rarely do and give my thoughts on Fortified Dreams. I don’t normally do this, but what the hell, might as well…
This was the most difficult book I have ever written in the Dreams & Reality series. It is complex and at times, a little confusing. New good guys get introduced. New bad guys crop up. Plus, most of it happens in the space of a single day, spent inside the Fortress… which means a lot of serial killers, mass murderers, and spree killers to fill up twenty or so normal Dreams novels.
There are also some new background tidbits given. Conspiracies are a central theme of the book. The reader will begin to realize just how complicated creating the SCTU & VCU really was. And that some things have been in the works for decades.
Also, there is the return of Patterson. Aislinn Cain and Malachi Blake can’t enter the Fortress without running into Patterson Clachan, what kind of world would that be? Plus, the readers will finally get a good glimpse of Eric Clachan. After all, he killed for one sister, he would definitely stand by his other sister’s side as she and the SCTU/VCU attempted to take back control from the prisoners.
However, what I’m most excited about is the revelation of Fiona’s character. She has been one that has had to grow on Aislinn and readers. Now, the readers will fully understand why she is sometimes antagonistic of Aislinn.
This is my favorite book to date. I hope the readers enjoy it just as much (and as usual, some questions will be answered, some will not… There are more Dreams novels to come and I can’t give away all the secrets at one time).
Posted by Hadena James on May 26, 2016
I’m a feedback kind of girl. Yes, yes, I’m aware of the adage about opinions, but I actually like hearing what other people think. And I like hearing all of it; negative, positive, incredibly absurd, downright unintelligible… So, unlike most authors, I do read reviews given on my books. I become giddy when I find I have a new review, doesn’t matter how many stars, I just love getting them. (This should not discourage anyone from posting a review… I consider negative reviews to be learning experiences, not cause for irritation)
It’s also why I welcome anyone to send me messages on Facebook, post comments there or on my blog, send me messages on Twitter, and for a few, to my personal email account. However, I am human and occasionally, an opinion makes me stop and shake my head (like the request that my Dreams & Reality Novels be labelled as “Mature.” It wasn’t righteous indignation that made me write the post about the request, it was an explanation of why I would not do so).
A few days ago, I was reading reviews for the Dreams & Reality Novels. I hate calling it a series, because that implies they must be read in order and only 2 have to be read that way, Cannibal Dreams & Butchered Dreams. Butchered makes a lot more sense if you read Cannibal first. And if you read Butchered first, you’ve missed out on the big reveal of who The Butcher is…
Anyway, after Butchered released, I expected a lot of unhappy readers for a reason… Aislinn refused to deal with the consequences of knowing who The Butcher was. Gabriel even broached the subject, but Aislinn shut him down, immediately. I was surprised to find only one person commented on it at all. This made me realize something very important about the readers of the Cain novels; they just expect to be left with unanswered emotional questions that will be answered when Aislinn decides to resolve it.
Holy hell, that’s a lot of faith to put into me, as a writer. Originally, I was going to have her deal with it in Butchered, but it felt forced and unnatural for Aislinn, at a time when there was so much other stuff going on (Nyleena, Fiona, her family, and there’s still the pesky issue of Michael, which Aislinn is still trying to ignore), to attack such a complicated situation, especially immediately after the event. Her character requires distance to understand and deal with things and since no one really commented on it, I think they get that. But as I said, that’s a lot of faith to put into me as a writer. I can’t help but wonder if that’s a good thing or a bad thing…
Posted by Hadena James on November 25, 2014
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