For the last couple of weeks, I have been spending about 10 hours a day with Jude the Great Nephew. My mom is acting as his primary babysitter right now and I work from home. I didn’t understand what this meant at first. I mean, I did, I was going to be spending time with the great nephew, but I didn’t know it would affect me psychologically.
Innocent Dreams focuses on child killers. Some of the children are very young. Since Jude the Great Nephew has been born, I’ve seen some psychological blocks arise from trying to reconcile how much I want to see him thrive and the fact that I am killing children, even if it is just fiction.
I have some issues with child killers anyway. The hardest D&R book for me to write was Cannibal Dreams and I got it written by wussing out and switching my serial killer focus from August to Patterson. In some ways, I resent that weakness, but I just couldn’t stomach it. I can write, read, and watch blood and gore all day long but one of the movies that disturbs me the most is Mercury Rising. It’s a good movie, but it makes me cringe. The plot is excellent, the fact that a child is the target of assassination because he broke a code hits a nerve with me. Second is Darkness Falls, again it has more to do with the children than it does the graphic nature of the film (which isn’t that graphic and I think got a raw deal from critics). As a general rule, I try to avoid books and movies that feature violence against children, even if the violence is implied, not shown.
Now that I get to be with him for most of the week, Innocent Dreams has come to a grinding halt. I’ll get past it, but it may take a little longer than expected.
But never fear! I have other serial killers waiting in the wings. I have several serial killers built and plotted out. Their stories just need to be put to paper or rather, computer screen, and they will be done. And the important front Cain chapters where the SCTU is dealing with the aftermath of Fortified Dreams can easily be moved to one of these other books.
So, as much as I hate to do it, Innocent Dreams will not release this year. In its place, Flawless Dreams will be published in November. Thankfully my stockpiling of serial killers has found a purpose and I can easily make the necessary adjustments and move on with Flawless Dreams without destroying the order of the books… because I like to have options available for just such an incident. I didn’t know if I would ever use my emergency plan, but after writing Cannibal Dreams, I was smart enough to make one.
Oddly, now that the decision to hold off on Innocent Dreams has been made, The Dysfunctional Wedding is actually flowing at a great pace and will release October 15, 2016. It will be followed by Flawless Dreams in November and Triggered Reality in December. I might even make my goal of putting out Terrorific Tales this year too.
I plan to have The Dysfunctional Wedding finished in six days. I will immediately start Flawless Dreams which has been mapped out well enough that I should have it written in two weeks. Triggered Reality is actually half done. I just need to add some stuff to it. The same is true of Terrorific Tales.
However, knowing that I don’t have to write Innocent Dreams after I finish The Dysfunctional Wedding did something amazing for me. For the first time since July 8th, I sat down at my computer and wrote 6,000 words in a single day. I had been struggling to get 1,000. Today, I suspect my word count will increase even more. If I keep this pace, DW will be done in three days or less. I can live with that.