They have put me on a CPAP because I don’t exhale as much air as I take in, which is a weird thing to do. However, it appears, I take two breaths, exhale only part of them and then take a third and exhale all the air in my lungs. Then the cycle starts again. In theory, the CPAP will fix that.
I picked it up yesterday. We don’t know what pressure I need, so I’m in a range right now. The machine self adjusts the amount of air flow through the night and I can look at it in the morning.
Now, I’m used to wearing night gear. I have mouth guards and a sleeping mask that I wear every night. However, at some point, I pulled the CPAP mask off my face in my sleep. This is kind of a feat. I had to get the full face mask, not just the nasal pillows or nasal cup. There are hooks and straps on the full mask. Yet, I managed to get the straps off the hooks and disconnect the hose before placing it in the bed between me and my SO. I know, because that’s how and where I found it this morning. And I did all of that without disturbing my sleep mask or my mouth guard.
So, I pulled up the sleep report. There was good pressure for 3.38 hours. I went to bed early because of the mask, so that means somewhere between 4 am and 4:15 am, I took it off.
Also, it caused me to dream. I don’t do a lot of dreaming at night (most of my dreams happen during naps), due to the clonazepam I take. I prefer not to dream, since they are usually weird and more often than not, terrifying. People are supposed to outgrow night terrors, I never did, it is one of the reasons for my anxiety disorder. And it’s worse at night because I know I’m going to go to sleep and dream. Stopping that has helped me sleep more. I’m hopeful that this new cause of dreaming stops once I get used to it.
I awoke with a terrible headache and more tired than when I went to bed. I would call Night 1 a non-success. And today, I’m exhausted. Hopefully, tonight goes better.