Chasing Rabbits

The problem with chasing rabbits is that sometimes you fall down the rabbit hole too.  This term means something different for everyone, for me, it means chasing things that don’t exist or don’t exist in the way I believe them to exist.  Falling into the rabbit hole means I have lied to myself enough to convince myself that it is real.

Recently, I discovered myself at the bottom of a rabbit hole.  I had chased a rabbit there, of that I was sure, but I couldn’t put my finger on exactly what the rabbit had been.  Slowly over the last week or so, I have been unraveling the path that put me at the bottom of the hole and found my elusive rabbit.

Now, with my belly full of dread, I must figure out what to do with the rabbit.  It is making me ill, physically and emotionally, so it can’t possibly be good for me.  Yet, chopping off its head and throwing it into a pot to make rabbit stew seems a little callous, even for me.

For the record, my rabbit was a friendship.  And until about a week ago, I was still convinced it was real.  However, with the battering my body took the weekend of my birthday still weighing on me physically, I had time for reflection.  Reflection brought clarity, but it has not brought resolution.

It is even possible that the so-called friendship is what caused my body to give out on me.  Stress does strange things to the body and there is definitely a lot of stress involved.  The stress continues, which makes me wonder if that is why I’m not healing as fast as the doctors had thought I would.  In theory, I should be doing cartwheels and instead, I’m still shuffling along, hoping it gets better soon.

However, if it’s stress, it won’t get better until I remove the stressor.  That is going to be very difficult.  In fact, it is going to require some inner Zen to make it work because I cannot physically remove the stressor at this point in time.  I have always been good at removing emotion using logical thoughts.  I can stop panic attacks using the technique.  It requires me to look at something as though it were a puzzle to be figured out and conquered.  I’ve almost gotten it… almost.  The puzzle is being decoded and with each new layer that gets removed, I feel a little less stressed.

The parts I can’t remove though, those are doozies.  Human relationships are complicated and complex and rarely do they involve just two people.  This situation is no different.  There are more involved than just me and my rabbit.  And I can foresee some nasty consequences with this untangling.  I do not want to damage any relationships on either side.  That would be unfair to both me and my rabbit.

We shall have to wait and see how this rabbit chase ends…

Previous Post
Leave a comment


  1. Good luck (probably not the right way to say that) with your “rabbit chase.” I hope that you get resolution soon.


  2. Maria D.

     /  September 11, 2015

    Stress definitely interferes with your ability to heal. I hope you are able to do what is necessary for your health and for the relationships involved. Whatever you decide – good luck!

    Liked by 1 person

  3. T.V. >(*~*)

     /  September 12, 2015

    May you and your Rabbit come to a peaceful conclusion so that you both can live to tell the tale.
    My Rabbits are my Ex’s, one after many many years is now more a friend then the Foe he once was, the newer one has gone from peaceful separation and quiet divorce to demanding to redo it all and take me to court for ” ” everything.. funny I though that’s what I gave him in the divorce..
    Seem Bugs isn’t the only tricky Rabbit out there.. that said, You don’t have to play Elmer Fudd, but you don’t have to let the rabbit win.. Remember, YOU are your foremost advocate and the one responsible to protect yourself, Rabbits are not your responsibility if they are harmful to you. Not every Rabbit foot is Good Luck, just look what good it did the Rabbit.

    Liked by 1 person


Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in: Logo

You are commenting using your account. Log Out /  Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )


Connecting to %s

Ms Not So Little Smarty Pants

In short, anything and everything

Plus Size Plus Meds

Weight Loss Adventure

Nerdy Fashionista

Fashion for those who love the Nerd Life

C Patt

A safe place for Paper Sisters to roam

Village Books

2513 Bernadette Dr, Columbia MO 65203 (573) 449-8637

Susan Finlay Writes

Mysteries and Suspense


It's going to be HUGE!

Maria63303's Blog

Just another weblog

Roger Radford Journalist & Author

Thrillers with a Twist

Characters in Progress

Developing character on the page and off

Me and my writing life

A blog about books, my ideas and what I've learned as I live life as a writer.

Not So Easy Breezy

Appreciating the hard things in life

Rachel Poli

I read. I write. I create.


more than one way to skin a cat


easy reading is damn hard writing

Finding The Write Direction Write Now

Jodie Jackson Jr. - Author

I wrote a book ...

%d bloggers like this: